Thursday, July 7, 2011

Let me tell you 'bout the birds and the bees...

Jimmy and I decided to start trying for a second baby in March. It has been 4 months now and we are still trying.

I went into the doctor about 6 weeks ago due to some pain in my lower abdomen. I have gotten cysts on my ovaries before and was sure that's what it was but wanted to be sure it wasn't something worse like an ectopic pregnancy or something.

It was two big cysts on one side and a string of them on the other side. She said that I have polycystic ovarian syndrome or PCOS. She said that it was going to make it hard for me to get pregnant. For me this was a huge blow. I have been wanting to have another baby for over a year and it was in March that Jimmy got on board with the idea. Waiting longer is not going to be easy. She told me to come back in 6 weeks to see if they are gone and if they are I can try clomid. I was stoked.

So fast forward six weeks. The cysts that I had burst. I know because they hurt like hell. I went to the appointment set to start Clomid and ready to get pregnant. Then things turned around. She told me that those cysts were gone but they had been replaced by two more new ones. It was everything I could do to not start crying. She said I can't try Clomid until they are all gone or else it can make them bigger.

So this is where I am. Full of cysts. Not pregnant. No options. I don't know what to do. I know I have to just wait and let it happen but it's not that easy. I have been waiting so long to even start trying that this is horrible for me. What do I do?

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